Just a quick update

I might be bipolar. I've looked through my old posts and well.. I change my mind. A lot. And I never pull through on stuff! Bad habit, should work on that.

Now for the update,

• I graduated 
• I have a mental breakdown every other week about what I should do with my life
• I gained the weight that I lost. Damn.
• I'm probably having a quarter life crisis
• I work behind a register, and I actually like my job. 

Please, if I ever give you any advice on anything, shut me up! I never found the manual on life, so I don't know what I'm talking about.
Not that I would read it, stubborn as I am, I always try to do it on my own first. 

Oh, you're on fire.

I am in love.

With Dan. Not just any Dan, not even Daniël Radcliffe, who was my teenage crush and now my not so teenage crush. No, danisnotonfire Dan. I've been binch watching his youtube channel for over a week and I just can't get enough.

I do feel a little sad though. If I would've been 13 this all would be totally ok. You know, gushing over some guy you don't know. Sadly, I am 21. But thanks to mr. not on fire I do feel a little more ok by being the socially awkward penguin that I am, it's always nice to know you're not alone!
Awkward fact: I only know other guys with my condition. There have to be other girls who face the same problems! Turning bright red after every unannouncened touch by a stranger, or just when all the attention is on me. Don't even get me started on flirting. Just don't.

Social interactions are just not my thing per se. I forced myself in to being more sociable because there's no way you can get on stage if you refuse to let other humans know that you exist. But one can only change so much. I am and always will be one step behind the social butterflies, just flapping their wings getting noticed and shit. But that's ok, penguins are way more awesome anyways. Always dressed up, loyal as can be, it's not that bad. I will get 'there', where ever that may be, in my own way. I'll probably take a detour and end up on the wrong end of the line, but then I'll just smile and turn bright red and people will feel sorry for that awkward little person, it sometimes works to my advantage.

I was also inspired to enlarge my piece of internet, so besides a blog, facebook, twitter, google+ and my youtube page I will start a vlog on youtube titled: myownlittlenook. Since nook worked well with my name. Oh the time I spent on useless things. 

If you read this through, may I just say, I love you! If you liked this, I'm even better in person! More awkward, so you can feel better about yourself and stuff. Be sure to check out myownlittlenook on april the 25th, which is my birthday, for my first ever post!

Love,
Anouk