the daydreamer

"All men dream, but not equally.
Those who dream by night in the dusty recesses of their minds,
wake in the day to find that it was vanity:

But the dreamers of the day are dangerous men,
for they may act on their dreams with open eyes

to make them possible"

T.E. Lawrence

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Life's good and hard and stuff

Never give up, it sounds so easy.

And in a way it is that easy. If you want something, go for it! And that is exactly what I did.

I currently live in an amazing apartment right in the heart of my lovely Amsterdam. We have 2 balconies, one of which is big enough to contain a group of people partying their behinds off. Yes, life is treating me well.
I graduated, I got a job and now a house of my own. Away from se parents and with two lovely ex-classmates, now te be known as my friends. I lost a lot of weight and am sort of maintaining the loss, I have a healthier relationship with food, I'm happier, more outgoing.. it's so good!

But I wouldn't be me if I didn't want to change something, since that is what I do best. My love life. It is non-existing and therefore boring, so I will not go on and on about that one guy, yada yada, cute, yada, hot, etc. Not interesting, no. Am working on changing it, that's all there is to tell.What I will tell you about is my next goal. It is a bit ambitious, but you got to dream big. Here it is: I am going to participate in the New York marathon of 2017. Why 2017? I'll be 25 by then and it will give me enough time to practice! My idea was to keep you posted on my runs, but also on my ever improving diet which will get me a killer body and a killer time on that marathon! A warning is in order, I am considered to be quite the healthfreak :) although I will never give up chocolate, ever.

Now I'm off to bed, my eyeslids are falling down.

Love!

Anouk

Solo, yolo.

Ja ja, nog even voor ik daadwerkelijk de 21 behaalde heb ik er een solovoorstelling uit weten te persen. Hier het resultaat :)

Change and stuff

New challenges.

I'm only a few months away from graduating from college and the stress has found me. It's not that bad, it's more the realisation of what lies ahead that scares me. Finishing my papers and projects is just simply forcing myself to sit behind my computer and to stay focused. Not that hard and no fun, but necessary.

But what happens after all of that has passed is what scares me. Only a few months left before the real world comes to take me along for a never ending ride. And yes, that also means opportunities, fun, work, money and what not. It is mainly the insecurity of it all that makes my heartbeat rise ever so slightly.
But fear is never the path to follow, so the idea is to grab my fear by the nuts and face it. Somehow. I'm working on it. 

For now I'll focus on getting my bachelors degree in musical theatre, which is hard enough as it is :)

*sigh* ... I just don't know. (Being all dramatic because of major in musical theatre. Who knows, maybe it'll help :D)

Xx

V-day schme-day

Jugh. Valentines day. The day to remind us singles that we have no romance in our lifes. Worse than the actual day is facebook. All the couples and happy, hopefull people. It is an annoyingly commercial day, made for those who enjoy receiving outrageously big bouquets of flowers and pound-adding chocolate giftboxes all shaped like hearts and freaking lovey dovey gooey eyed bears or puppies.

Not for me.
Because I have no love life and no secret admirers who wanted to let me know they adore me by an anonymous message, flower, card or whatever the hell is on sale to make someone feel 'special'. Emotional fuckwittage, as Briget Jones would say. I could not agree more.

I never hate, but this day has a special place in my very non exciting love life. I will wholeheartedly hate this day 'till my knight in shining armor comes to sweep me off my feet. But I swear to God, if he is going to try that with a card, chocolates, roses and a cutie wootie teddy bear, he can keep on moving.
Some originality is required to get this heart pounding for the dreaded 14th of February.

Love,
The valentine grinch.