Resolutions >> Shmesolutions

I was never able to succeed in my new years resolutions, mostly they didn't even last 'till February! So last year I thought of something else, something new, an end of the year goal - or goals.

And I actually made them happen..

My goals for 2014 were:

• Dating - fun and done
• Going to at least 3 or 4 festivals - FANTASTIC! and done
• Living on my own by the end of 2014 - looking rather smug right now, 'cause done
• Becoming a happy person in general - :D also done

So I guess, looking back on the past year, it was a pretty good one. And all because I wanted it to be, the power of being determined to do something. You truly are responsible for your own happiness, very simply by not letting life get you down when things get tough. 

Now I thought I'd give it another go for 2015 since it worked like a charm.

So, my goals for the end of 2015:  

• Getting enough work on the stage to make a - or half a - living of it
• Get the blog I share with my sister - concerning facts about food - up and running
• Continue writing the stories I started this year and years ago

I couldn't wait for the new year to start and since my other goals are all accomplished I started right away. Not wasting any time on these new goals! 

To be honest, I'm scared as hell. This past year was all about coming out of my comfortable and safe cocoon, all in preparation for my new goals. Now shit actually has to happen.
But being scared is a good thing, that means it's something new, exciting and unknown.

I am ready for anything coming my way! :D

Hope you have an amazing new years eve and an even more amazing, exciting and fun 2015!

Cheers!

Love,
Anouk

Exactly what you want it to.

That was an answer, not a question. So what was the question?

I've been searching for a way to become a happy person this year. I always tried to live up to what I imagined were other peoples expectations. I tried to make everyone around me happy by becoming the perfect person. Skinny yet muscular, together but with humor, outspoken and respectful, a social butterfly with an overflowing calender and quick witted in any situation, liking the popular films, series, clothing styles, disliking impopular music, fandoms, etc.

To be honest, I'm quite fed up with living up to anyone's expectations but my own.
The above sums up what I imagined would give me that perfect life that I imagined as a child. Now bare with me, I was quite the dreamer - still am - but with this list of 'who to become to be successful in life' I made it pretty hard to become a happy human being.

We're not wired to be perfect. But what is perfection really? 
Social media is only a display of life's highlights, yet we act like it really is that fabulous, to really be human is frowned upon on social events - farting, burping, smelling, pooping even, the basics if you will - we have to be smart, earn a degree in something, we have to care about others and show that we do through making endless donations, we have to grow every year, be amazing homecooks, be cheerful, happy, kind, friendly, realistic, not to happy because that is not normal, we have to have a goal in life, we have to make something of it and preferably yesterday as you only live once so spend your time wisely and make every moment count!

I might be exaggerating, I'm willing to confess to that. But this is only part of the messed up message the current day media is making us swallow.
And I'm not taking it anymore.

As this year was all about becoming a happier person, I choose to leave everything that is not my own opinion behind me and start exploring the world from my point of view.
What do I believe to be true? What do I expect from life?
In the end it's quite a meaningless thing, my life in general. I'm just one out of many, a small girl born and raised in the suburbs of the Netherlands, blessed with the opportunity to believe whatever the hell I want.
So, what is the meaning of life? Cue back to title.

We have a choice, either to let life get us down when it's hard. to be negative and cynical when it won't go as imagined. Or we put time in being positive for our own good, explore and follow our own paths and be free of a future plan, just go with it. If you mapped out the road to follow, you might miss out on some amazing experiences.

That's how I see it anyways.

To end in Christmas spirit: it's ok not to be perfect, we learn through our mistakes. And on that note, what fun would life be if you couldn't learn and evolve?

Merry Christmas everyone!

Love,
Anouk

Do it already!

Alright alright!

Practice makes perfect they say. Now in my case practice makes less embarrassing, but as I am incredibly impatient and need to do stuff right away or it won't happen at all, I'm going to do this anyways.
Recording my own songs.

I've got two, tomorrow will be recording day. Why tomorrow? Well, 'cause today the awesome HD ready camera is still with my parents, and since I moved out I no longer have it at hands reach.

Hope to be uploading before Sunday!

Also, I just have to do my own version of Taylor the Latte Boy.

3 songs in one day.
Will I succeed?
Well, I just have to.

Love,
Anouk

P.S. Trying to be productive in bed never works out. The bathroom is literally next door and I don't feel like leaving this bed. To comfy, to lazy.