December 22, 2014

Exactly what you want it to.

That was an answer, not a question. So what was the question?

I've been searching for a way to become a happy person this year. I always tried to live up to what I imagined were other peoples expectations. I tried to make everyone around me happy by becoming the perfect person. Skinny yet muscular, together but with humor, outspoken and respectful, a social butterfly with an overflowing calender and quick witted in any situation, liking the popular films, series, clothing styles, disliking impopular music, fandoms, etc.

To be honest, I'm quite fed up with living up to anyone's expectations but my own.
The above sums up what I imagined would give me that perfect life that I imagined as a child. Now bare with me, I was quite the dreamer - still am - but with this list of 'who to become to be successful in life' I made it pretty hard to become a happy human being.

We're not wired to be perfect. But what is perfection really? 
Social media is only a display of life's highlights, yet we act like it really is that fabulous, to really be human is frowned upon on social events - farting, burping, smelling, pooping even, the basics if you will - we have to be smart, earn a degree in something, we have to care about others and show that we do through making endless donations, we have to grow every year, be amazing homecooks, be cheerful, happy, kind, friendly, realistic, not to happy because that is not normal, we have to have a goal in life, we have to make something of it and preferably yesterday as you only live once so spend your time wisely and make every moment count!

I might be exaggerating, I'm willing to confess to that. But this is only part of the messed up message the current day media is making us swallow.
And I'm not taking it anymore.

As this year was all about becoming a happier person, I choose to leave everything that is not my own opinion behind me and start exploring the world from my point of view.
What do I believe to be true? What do I expect from life?
In the end it's quite a meaningless thing, my life in general. I'm just one out of many, a small girl born and raised in the suburbs of the Netherlands, blessed with the opportunity to believe whatever the hell I want.
So, what is the meaning of life? Cue back to title.

We have a choice, either to let life get us down when it's hard. to be negative and cynical when it won't go as imagined. Or we put time in being positive for our own good, explore and follow our own paths and be free of a future plan, just go with it. If you mapped out the road to follow, you might miss out on some amazing experiences.

That's how I see it anyways.

To end in Christmas spirit: it's ok not to be perfect, we learn through our mistakes. And on that note, what fun would life be if you couldn't learn and evolve?

Merry Christmas everyone!

Love,
Anouk




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