Marty, may I borrow your time machine?

Currently cleaning out my parents external hard drive, because I got to give it back sooner or later.. :P and I stumbled upon some old pictures.

Now if you've read my blog before you might recall I had some issues with the way I look growing up. It's moments like these when I'm reminded to how I used to feel. And though I wish I could have had more fun while on Crete in 2007, not even bothering to think about what I could and shouldn't eat and constantly aware of every inch of my body and how it showed, I'm all the happier for it now.

I won't say that I don't regret it, I do. I regret every moment that I was so self involved I didn't even see how kind, sweet and considering the people around me were. I pushed so many of them away due to my personal struggles.
It's a slow process, growing in to loving the body you were given. I decided that I was fed up with feeling sorry for myself one day and things have been looking up even since.

All I know is that the moment I started accepting every little thing about myself, my personality, my preferences, my shortcomings, my talents, my body, the fact that I have to wear glasses because my eyes are simply to dry for lenses, my not so party animal inner grandma who loves tea and movies on any given evening, that is when I started to 'heal', if you will.

Not that I was ever broken, I was just a bit lost :)

I'd like to be able to help others, to inspire, but I guess I'm not there yet. I just started to enjoy life myself! It feels like I missed out on the opportunity to find out who I am during puberty, so I'm just doing that now.

On that note, I just got my nose pierced. Wanted to do that since I was 15, now - 3 months away from 23 - I finally went and got one.

I guess the point behind this post is - it's never too late to start living your life the way you want to. Opportunities might be lost, but new ones will come. Doors may slam closed in your face, but windows can open, the whole cliche list of things to-keep-you-going-when-you're-down, it's true!

All you have to do is stop wining, and start moving!

I often ask myself 'but how?', don't think so much about doing things. Just go out and do them.

The body and time of le issues

 
And this is me with my lovely new addition. And happy and stuff. 

So yeah, that.

Love,
Anouk