To be honest.

You’re the most stupid asshole I ever loved.

I guess that I could have been the right person for you.
You might indeed not have been the right person for me.
Very true, I deserve better.
But what if I didn’t want better right now?
What if I wanted to be there for you?
Ever thought that I might want to help you love yourself?
Knowing that I wouldn’t grow with you, but I would’ve helped.

I would’ve wanted you to see yourself through my eyes.
And through my eyes you’re far from perfect, you are you.

You are ok, adorable, funny, committed, kind, artistic.

You repeatedly deny yourself your good side.
You choose to see the bad.

But I read your good side between the lines.
It is that side that made me fall for you.
It is that side that made me open up to you.
I’m not stupid you know.

You are.
But that is ok, you’re human.

And people make mistakes.
That is how we learn how to be.
That is how we learn who to be.
That is how we learn who we want to be.
And that is how we learn who we already are.

It was never perfection I was after.
I was always in it for the adventure.

You might deny me you on my adventure.

But you can’t deny me it.

I’m incredibly stubborn you know.

You never saw us through my eyes.
I never saw us through yours.

I could’ve been wrong.
But so could you.

We can blame our baggage.
We can blame our plans.
But neither the future nor the past are present.
In the end I chose to be in the moment.
In the end you chose not to be with me.

You’re the most stupid asshole I ever loved.