Where my body was exhausted, but my mind bewildered.
It is almost 12 am, tomorrow I have to work and later dance and then my weekend has begun. Which is totally fine, it's just.. I'm in bed, I'm tired, I want to sleep.
My body agrees, but my mind wonders off endlessly. Very annoying.
So I tried to meditate.
There is this thing where you try to put all your focus in your toes and from there you go up all the way to the top of your head very slowly. The idea is that you fall asleep half way through. I can't even start to focus on my big toe for 2 seconds, let alone get to the top of my head. My mind is extremely active right now.
And if it were important things then maybe that would be fine, it would serve some purpose. But it's utter nonsense. It's all about how I do my job and what food to buy or anything in that category. Those are not things I want to think about when lying in bed, ready to wonder off to the land of dreams.
I'd simply like it to calm the fuck down and be like a calm summer breeze. Sometimes like that.
On to attempt nr. two where I count backwards, three at a time from 300 to 0. Again, you're supposed to fall asleep half way through. I made it to 0 quite some times though.
:)
Trouble sleeping. Sometimes it's just part of the package deal I guess.
Love,
Anouk
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