Joan Rivers. Never liked her. I know we're supposed to be all good and lovely about the dead, but the woman was mean.
I'm watching her documentary as I'm writing this post and I still think that she was mostly mean, not funny - or mostly funny be it very mean at many points. But that was who she was and she stayed true to herself, I can admire that.
As someone who wants to be on stage herself I thought watching a documentary like hers was mandatory - and I was right. To hear an artist of 75 - at that time - say that showbusiness is a business of rejection and that you get rejected throughout your career is somewhat reassuring to me. That means that I'm on the right path.
I've been getting rejected over and over and people around me have sometimes been handed opportunities. It's a hard thing to witness and sometimes even harder to not be to hard on yourself. (grammar mind fuck!) I am always genuinely happy for friends who get jobs in the business because I know how tough it can be and how being in that particular part of the world can make even the most confidant person an insecure little puppy at times, but it's not you. You can't change anything about it. It just wasn't your time and place.
That is not a fun thing to realize, but it's something I had to learn.
Some celebrity stories make it seem like that once you've hit the stage in a good production opportunities will come knocking on your door while you push against it from the inside because the admiration is just to overwhelming.
Well that might be the Friday night special where they put a lovely filter over the truth because, with some exceptions, that just ain't true. It's called a job for a reason.
To all the struggling entertainers out there, we truly must never give up our dreams. There is a stage for everyone and an audience that will like the way your brain works. Whether you're a writer, musician, youtuber, painter, dancer, actor, filmmaker, comedian or any type of entertainer that I failed to mention, if you really have the talent you can't allow yourself to give in to that rejection. It takes a strong human being to believe in yourself after everyone has told you 'no'. They are simply wrong and the first person to agree with you is the one you have to allow yourself to believe. They saw your talent, they spotted your drive - they give you a reason and hopefully enough courage to search for the next 'yes!'.
All those 'no's' in between should be considered white noise. Very annoying and distracting, but it can be turned off if you switch to a different channel.
Yeah, I'm such a philosopher at times. Comparing stupid people to televisions.
So, point here being - Fuck you naysayers, I will succeed.
Love,
Anouk
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