I'm many things at once these past couple of days.
Both terrified and excited, happy and sad, confident and humbled and just all over the place really.
Yesterday I got to perform in the local theatre - Zaantheater in Zaandam - for a new initiative from a director whom I got to know last year. I owe this man many things, I'm so grateful for what he does for me! Words can't describe how awesome it is when people give you chances, especially in this business!
My song was really well received, people came to me afterwords to congratulate me which is something that I'm always weirded out by, what can you do and say other than 'Thank you!' with a creepy ass enormous smile on your face?
Anywho, I did appreciate it very much :)
I also got a little thing out of it, but as that is not set in stone I don't like to spill what it is already.
On that note, I almost uploaded this blog this morning. Just before I went to my audition for the musical tour of 'Spot'. A tour which will go through the USA and Canada. I cannot tell you how badly I wanted that spot (haha, pun definitely not intended) because I really really badly want to act and sing in English! Somehow it feels better than Dutch.
But as always up until now, I didn't get in. Luckily I didn't get all lovey dovey about it, that would've been a bit harsh to read right now.
It just sucks.
I will never give up on trying to get there, I refuse to give in, but it would be nice if I could get in a show for once. I'm performing, yes, but I want to be on stage for more than a night, more than a week! I'd like to spent my time there for an entire season for once!
And fuck it, I'm good enough to be up there. Decide for yourself -
Both terrified and excited, happy and sad, confident and humbled and just all over the place really.
Yesterday I got to perform in the local theatre - Zaantheater in Zaandam - for a new initiative from a director whom I got to know last year. I owe this man many things, I'm so grateful for what he does for me! Words can't describe how awesome it is when people give you chances, especially in this business!
My song was really well received, people came to me afterwords to congratulate me which is something that I'm always weirded out by, what can you do and say other than 'Thank you!' with a creepy ass enormous smile on your face?
Anywho, I did appreciate it very much :)
I also got a little thing out of it, but as that is not set in stone I don't like to spill what it is already.
On that note, I almost uploaded this blog this morning. Just before I went to my audition for the musical tour of 'Spot'. A tour which will go through the USA and Canada. I cannot tell you how badly I wanted that spot (haha, pun definitely not intended) because I really really badly want to act and sing in English! Somehow it feels better than Dutch.
But as always up until now, I didn't get in. Luckily I didn't get all lovey dovey about it, that would've been a bit harsh to read right now.
It just sucks.
I will never give up on trying to get there, I refuse to give in, but it would be nice if I could get in a show for once. I'm performing, yes, but I want to be on stage for more than a night, more than a week! I'd like to spent my time there for an entire season for once!
And fuck it, I'm good enough to be up there. Decide for yourself -
People - Barbra Streisand
The Girl in 14G - Kristin Chenoweth
It's what I do, it's what I love, it's what I live for. It just sucks to be rejoiced and rejected - total mindfuck.
But! This does mean that I get to perform with an orchestra - the same as in the 14G song - January 2015! And I'm going to perform a very exciting song.. it's a Disney original and very new. Aw yeah, I'm singing 'Let it Go'. My inner musical diva is very pleased by this.
Done with ranting! My ice cream is gone, my sadness is out of the window and I will keep my head up high and just keep going on with what I've been doing thus far. Which is doing whatever the fuck I want.
Love,
Anouk
P.S. The day after - I just needed to reassure myself of the fact that I do think that I chose the right path I guess :P Sharing some of my singing was way overdue anyways.
Drama has passed - moving on!
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