And I'm feeling good!

Hell yeah!

Will probably not feel this good in a few hours when my alarm will rudely wake me up far to early, but I'm having one of those nights where I don't want to sleep. To much going on in my head, to many things yet to be thought of, or to get excited about!

First off - I think my eating disorder is officially over! Fuck yeah, moving on to the next chapter of today's post -

Accepting oneself!

I feel like I'm finally getting ok with who I am. Who I really am that is and not the person I think others like to see.
I've been so obsessed with fitting into a certain box my entire life that I never took the time to discover who I actually am and what it is that I like. What are my beliefs? What do I find important, how do I want to treat people and how do I want them to treat me?
It might be very normal to be discovering this at the age of 22, I just feel free of my own judgement for once. And it feels amazing!

This got me thinking about how we like to put people in certain boxes and how we like these boxes to determine the world around us. It makes sense, so don't feel bad when you recognize yourself in this! It's a very safe thing to do, giving other people a place in a fictional group. We long to be a part of one anyways, so it's easier to think of people as larger groups of like minded individuals then every single one of them being very different. It makes behavior and thought patterns understandable for people outside of the 'group' and it also makes it very easy to decide where you like to belong.

There are the over-achievers - mostly very neat and together, stressful during exams and never happy with the end results.
The theatrical people - untidy, chaotic individuals with a very dreamy outlook on life, often very colorful and eccentric.
The business-man-type - married, very busy, glued to his phone and laptop and always accompanied by a cup of coffee. Or espresso, as that is real coffee.
The foodie - a hipster like individual, very active on social media, likes vintage clothing and interiors and never fails to snap a picture of their super(food) salad.

Sounds familiar? Social groups like these make it very easy to determine who the person whom you've just got to know is. What do you like? What do you wear? What spikes your interest?

But I believe that this is just a false imagination of security. Many of us are so much more than just one thing. No group can fully grasp the meaning of being who you are, there is always more! Try to fit yourself into a box, you probably can't. Why then put others in one?

I try to think of people as interesting individuals these days. Everyone has their own story and you can learn a little from each of them. Even if it wasn't intentional, maybe someone made a certain choice which you can't relate to. But if you ever find yourself in a similar situation you know that you can at least rule out one option!

I don't know, keep an open mind is what I'm trying to say I guess. I'm just figuring it all out on the go :)

Enough for now, I'm finally getting tired.
Hope you liked my epiphany!

Love,
Anouk